Copyright © Kanya Iwana
But I love you
for you have cleared my heart
for you have cleaned my wound
for you’ve helped me see light
I love you
you and your childlike acts.
Make all this virtuous facts
against, I react.
Copyright © Kanya Iwana
I love you
but I don’t know how to say.
The circumstances hold me back
for you love someone else;
and even the thought that I love you
has been killing me inside.
Took so long to deny
yet it never subsides.
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Now I know that this happens a lot
but I sure did not intend
that when I was playing your guitar
the strings were overly bent.
That awkward pause was horrible
and I swear I could see myself bleed
as my fingers start to wobble
I swallowed a hard lump of guilt
Since I knew they weren’t cheap,
I’m sorry to break your guitar string.
Just don’t look at me
like I am such a jinx.
But, hey, on the bright side
that string is quite pretty,
So I’m helping you accessorize
Making a bracelet, so you wouldn’t hate me.
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Forgive me, God, for I have envied;
Forgive me, I exclaim,
but I exhaust myself from every
“Forgive me“‘s. Love, for shame!
For you, my God, I’d give the truth
‘bout this love that I can’t tame;
Just the twist and vice, at all, won’t soothe;
God, I feel so ashamed.
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I lie half awake,
my hands for you to take;
Rushing, beating, hyperventilating,
my heart begins to shake
.
O, are emotions not of puzzle?
When the battle of the head and heart troubles,
what is this feeling?
for you w’er it’s love or lustful
.
It searches through the core,
reaching for answers from yours;
I want to stop this rapid river
before I’m broken heretofore
.
However tonight,
under this mesmerizing sight,
I’ll let myself take a bite
bittersweet but of delight;
.
Our bond’s quick like speed of light;
You take away all my fright
as you steal a kiss like a bandit
Under the moon, under the blankets
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I remember how the rain splattered against the window;
how the raindrops must have smelled outdoors.
I remember Adele’s beautiful record in my ears;
how it started fire that tingles my skin.
I remember how the light illuminated parts of the wall,
how my notebook sat on my lap.
I remember the gloom.
I remember how uncomfortable it felt.
The gulp down the throat, the silver which knifed into the chest.
The pain, the sense of loneliness –
I remember them.
“Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.”
I remember how those words has put such strong hopes into my mouth.
My mind.
My heart.
“Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.”
I remember how I was a teenage dreamer who believes that songs make life seem so easy. It doesn’t. Reality is what we are facing.
I remember how reality knocked me down.
You fall, then you get up.
Lies.
I remember how it goes.
Once you fall,
It’s not easy to get back up.
It’s not easy to face the world again.
It’s not easy to just pretend like you’re okay.
Once you fall in love,
It’s never easy to shut the feelings down.
It’s not easy to face the world with that thought that you have fallen.
I remember how difficult it was to escape.
Here’s a catch – what if you fall in love with the wrong person?
I remember
how I felt about it.
how I responded towards it.
how I knew and ignored it.
I remember saying,
Nevermind my feelings.
“Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.”
Someone like you. Someone like you. Anyone like you.
Well, isn’t someone like you hard to find?
Someone like you who’ll treat us with love. Pure love. Special kind of love.
I remember shutting my eyes closed;
I closed my book, song was paused.
I remember the thoughts taking over.
Time heals.
But this is now.
“I wish nothing but the best for you.”
Copyright © Kanya Iwana
Dreamer
Captivating
Singing, strumming, humming
The heating crowds of butterflies
Comely
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barefoot blisters blemish quads
damp thirstiness dumbfound edginess
teamwork hands held circle prayers
posture blinded applause melody
Graham Cunningham breaths expression
faces mist expectation twist
motion notion endeavor liquidity
gravity lifts stability beauty
epilogue pirouettes compeer pas de deux
coda curtsy exit tears
